I wasn't fine. I had almost died, and I couldn't stand that. I couldn't stand what might have happened if Carlton and Gus hadn't arrived in time. I was scarred for life, but I wasn't going to break down here. I was going to convince everyone that I was fine, and I was going to go home by myself and collapse in bed and curl up in a ball under the covers and cry for hours, and my cats would crawl onto my bed and paw at my toes and lick the tears off my face while subtly hinting for more food. I wasn't going to let anyone know of the real mental turmoil inside me, the whirlwind of emotions that was ripping me apart. I couldn't, not now, not when there wasn't anyone in the world who would understand how I felt.

Tag to 4x16 "Mr. Yin Presents". Major spoilers for that episode. Lassiet friendship.